Lighting the Path Less Taken

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Gosh Sahje!
Cougar let you see him/her!

The evening was cool tho the sun shone dipping into the west, painting the night sky with colors brilliant and stunning. A sky's worth of an Easter Basket I thought.

I had prepared the fire earlier and walked up to set it to flame. The wee clearing was alive with birds not much caring if I had come up to join them before their bedtime. Tho the air was cool the fire was warm and felt so inviting.

I had decided I was in need of a clearing so I played my flute (such as it is..I still learn but play the tune in my head) hoping it pleased the powers and spirits and guides. I stood and opened my arms honoring and welcoming all who wished to enter and share with me the clearing.

It was a wonderful night and lovely full moon, I sent my wishes on the wisps of smoke and held my hands open and empty to show them I was humbled...

I always amaze at the ebb and flow of emotion and how the Earth, Moon, and energies affect me..
Last week there was such deep and overwhelming emotion and feelings of being lost.
I gave it to Source, said I was going to trust the flow of things to keep me afloat.
This week I have the quiet me time all alone and am loving it, swimming in it, totally indulging in it...
at the same time, Source has kept me very busy with helping and healing, which is who I am and what I do..
I stepped out last night when I realized my wish had been granted
opened my arms and said "thank you" from a simple woman

Spring is come..a weeks worth of sun and warmth, then sweet showers have fed the earth and aroused the greens and goldens, painted the ground with brilliance in floral display.

Time taken to feel within and without was golden as well. Abed in a hammock strung between two strong trees, laying back and allowing the flow of life to blow over and thru me like the wind, to warm me like the blessed sun. Working in the dirt, clearing pasture, clearing memories...I learned to value each day as it comes..not get too far ahead of myself. Dreams and wishes are merely extensions of thot and hope..all well and good but not to become wound up in and losing sight of the day surrounding at the time.

A pivotal thing sending the last peep from the nest. A mixture of absolute joy at the freedom and a bit of worry over will they fly well? Ah our flights were full of huge highs and crashes, as will theirs be. Time to let those I raised live their own ways. Time for this, yet young enough. woman to live for herself. Imagine....

This day after a long piece of time lived quietly, except for moving the son and suffering the foolishness of eating what I know not to be good for me....this day I look a bit forward. I wonder what will manifest next...I am careful as I think, perhaps wish...I wished for the Reiki Room, and she was born. I wished to have time by myself, and here I am. I had hoped for a wee bit of money and I recieved it... What wish is next?

I must wish well and with care....

It has been an interesting few days, the fact that SO many others are feeling this energy thing pressing against their eyelids and heads and hearts...all affects me deeper than it should but I feel...the empathy that is mine is not always closed...but it helped me see thru and come out.
I wrote something this morning, well actually was more free wrote by my guides thru me and wrote itself I feel and tho the words were meant sincerely for another, as I reread them, I felt they really spoke to me and would to others, so I will share it. Take it or leave it but I share with love and caring, q18

Many of us have been feeling like we are stuck inside some balloon and it isn't a pretty one but one we want out of so where is that pin to pop it. We push against the sides with all our might, we want out of it to get back our life, to breathe but this damn balloon has us caught up. Yes I believe it to be a moon/cosmic thing....there is a bit more time for this then it will clear.

It will ease soon. I too have felt it, when I do, I go to cave (metaphorically speaking) and take me time to think. I know so many that are feeling depressed, lost, stuck, despairing of love, life, relationships, money, time, self. These thots and feelings are kinda new for many of you who have lived a structured way of life...these things unsettle but they are meant for us to peruse and choose what it is we want for the future.

Our futures are living in an uncertain and volatile time. Politics, money, living conditions, love or the lack of it, security, I could go on and on and on. When we are struck with these hours/days of melancholy, of introspection, it is best we ride them with eyes wide open instead of shut, ears straining to hear the slightest thing so we can discover the why and there is always a why.

Even the steadiest most together humans have days of lost, and I have had several of late. Questions fly like the monkeys in the Wizard of Oz, snatching at us harshly, making us shrink back inside with doubt and fear. The key is to stand up and swat em away as you look beyond the growling horizon. Not always easy, I know well, but if you hold a steady course and keep an open mind you'll begin to see the sliver of light rising on that horizon, then focus on it, look to that hope and discover one thing you shall do to change something anything and that begins the ball of life rolling again.

For some folks it is a vacation, a retreat, a change of scenery that helps them see again. For some it is a few days home in their comfort zone, for some it is pushing the body to the max to find that zen of the mind, for others deep meditations and so much more. Find your tool. With kids, family, your job, your responsibilities, even tho beloved, you can get worn down, tired, empty feeling ...then it is time to set the burden down briefly, be selfish for an hour an day and refuel the person that is you in anyway that fulfills YOU without thot to anyone or anything else.

Spirit taught us long ago that without a shining soul our human body cannot grow, find your light.

Good Morning Sister Bear,

I am happy to see you posted these thoughts… I am drawn to add… I hope it will be helpful.

Walking our path in this physical reality is such a deep inner agreement. An agreement which we made when we signed on to our earth journey. When times like these come along we wonder if we had even a small clue what all it would entail. For myself, I can honestly say I would have signed on anyway.

We have been chatting about being tired mentally and physically. Feeling the buzz of this new Shift. Going to cave, retreating from the constant hum. Feeling all the emotions you wrote about. All the drama that is going on in our personal lives and world over, as the old energy works toward being released and many folks strongly tied to the old… It is wearing on our hearts, bodies, minds and spirits. It can ease our changes when we let go and let the new energy flow, washing out the old energy.

I too have been communicating with my Guides and their sharing is eye opening. The picture this “time” is bigger and stronger than it has been in the past. The bump up in the Shift this time is lasting longer than we have felt in the past.

The Guides speak of a Universal Shift. We humans are often caught up thinking about just the Shift here on Earth… forgetting that we are indeed part of the Universe. The picture is bigger than imagined. Even our Guides are feeling the Shift. Being in a physical form we feel it very differently. They say, “Shift reaches full motion with right quest of Earth’s population. Time is Fluid.” The old energy is being replaced with a new vibrational energy which leaves us feeling out of sync with ourselves and the rest of the world.

They speak of questing for ‘time’. Proper Time. Time? Huh? To think of time outside our typical linear time. That time will/must shift. Each shift comes at the right time. We wonder about what will happen when we reach 12/21/2012 (BTW add the numbers together... We get an eleven… interesting that.. Jeez, something else to ponder) When I asked about this date I was given… “Time will restart. Gift from the Creator to future universe.”

So folks, embrace the new, let go of the old. This journey is challenging enough without hanging on to that which no longer serves us.

Many blessings and peace

It is quite easy to be hurt by those that are the nearest
We can always make excuses for our friends
We never seem to find an excuse for our family

Death is all around us
Sometime it touches those close to us
Most times is someone that we hardly know

We can always find a way of comforting friends
We struggle to comfort our own families
As we cannot detracts ourselves as easily

So take those deep breaths
Find a place too find yourself
Find that space within

Counting down the days til the end May. She has been a fickle lady our May. Up then down, painful and joyous. I think I will like June better, she is warmer, and a bit more settled...bright n shiny....I am looking forward to her.

Sometimes my world gets very loud and for a person who is been on the quiet side of life for many years it can overwhelm. How I do love the learning tho....seeing how people have changed over the years in how they interact. I find them less courteous, less patient and much more fractured. How does one heal such a world?

One moment at a time...maybe one human at a time beginning with self. I am, I have found I am torn by decisions I have made, forward or backward or something new...can't go backwards.

I have found I hear better, feel deeper at this age....want more and long for more. Rambles in the rain today.....I am taking some me time this weekend....fine fires, quiet time alone, listening inside and to the signs given me this past few weeks. The bear keeps coming round. My guide tells me that soon as I listen to his message he'll go way so trust me I will listen.

Changes are coming...I can feel them rumble like thunder in the hills. I love that pregnant time before the storm and I am ready for it now...how are you?

Day one
I have been finding I go to bed, get sleepy, then can't fall to sleep. My mind and body are quiet just don't sleep so...last night rather than lie there griping I got up and fiddled around, wished Hermie his HB and then went to bed at midnight and slept til 8. Go figure.

Today dawned bright and fair, the air is heavy and wet like a tropical island from all the rain storms last night. Green takes on new meanings with all the varied shades I can see out my screen door from here. The blueberry bushes are heavy with blossoms...looks to be a good year again for them. The birds are singing and scrounging for bugs and seed. Kasha sleeps on the old black rug on the porch and for this moment, all feels serene. I'll take that on my first morning of retreat.

Huge breath...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

A strange kind of day..no power for many many hours...the quiet of Saturday prowled like a contented cat looking for a mouse or something to chase.
The sun shone but the air was cool..reminded me more of autumn than spring but out in it, dressed in a favorite pair of jeans and sweatshirt, for hours of mowing.
The bear came back and destroyed the bird feeders tho empty. I have asked him what he is here to tell me so he can go off and leave me safe in my hollow..I can hope he heard me.
Now tired and content with the velvet green lawn I am off to shower and rest and see what the night brings as this May fades to a memory..bring in June soon please.

Sunday came and I was so pulled to music, however the computer kept crashing..seems IE was the culprit. SO...
It was a day of moving things around, housekeeping...getting ready for our June's arrival...all going lovely til I tripped down the stair a bit and tweaked my back a bit...no worries, a lay down was earned...moist heat, my Reiki...then another's as well...lulled into comfort and lazy catlike daze.

Night came and I sat, read a bit more til my eyes couldn't stay open. Up the stair to my bed chamber at my usual 10. The Reiju was hot and huge tonight...all the guides and Masters and energies filled the room. I climbed into my tented bed and my hands fell like hot coals on my tummy and I smiled..I felt such peace, such warmth and then...................................

a bat landed on the top of my canopy. q20

Now there are few things that get my heart racing and instill utter fear in me but bats, tho I adore them outside...creep me out in my home. I gathered my courage and covered my head (well yea!) turned on the lights and there it was..... q53

just a wee brown bat, terrified flitting round the floor.

I opened some windows (yes screens on them) as this technique had worked last year but it just kept missing the height so I crept to the french door, tore off the curtains and opened it...all the while telling it just find the door the window...it would get so close then flit off afraid until finally FINALLY to the french door it flew and I SLAMMED that door. Ran to the stair for my flashlight to be SURE and sigh...poor thing is there on the screen til morning when I'll set it free.

Now of course my heart is awake and tis almost midnight....sleep? oh sure...maybe later...... q23

Hellova an ending to May tho...had to laugh..my deepest fears... q51

now it'll be onward and upward for my June 1st.

gnite maybe q13

ah finally, a well slept night. I awoke from a night of dreams being held captive, not unkindly, being taught things I thot I knew...interesting night.

I walked down the stair to see out the many windows a world held in a misty dark light. I smiled and thot, "how appropriate after the dreams; that awake it should be so very much the same and will it continue whilst I am awake..I anticipate."

I opened the door and there stood a big beautiful red doe, I think it is the fawn's momma, Kasha trembled at my side but waited quiet with me as she regally walked past, no doubt to her wee babe in the early morning mist.

I have a feeling something important will be shown me today...the goosebumps and prickles accompany the words and thots day and night. Our June is showing herself to be an interesting lady.

Time for tea, and whatever it is that I am to do today....I wish you a day of at least one good smile from a wee surprise. q18

(don't remember if I shared the fawn here so here is the link to him)
http://www.kodakgallery.com/Share...1&y=zcahwf&localeid=en_US

After a long day of rebooting the shop and it's intent and purpose (long story) I fell to sleep and awoke to the phone! Thank goodness cuz it's after 8 q51

and I need to shower and get to the shop.

Thank goodness because I was having the longest awful dream and I never dream bad..but I had been away and while gone Kasha ran off and got mixed up with some little dogs and a bad man who fed them drugs and then she got hit by a car.

I got a call saying she couldn't move and I'd best get there. In the dream I finally found the place but as I tried to find her people kept making me wait or getting in my way, the hall kept getting longer with more and more rooms and doors, I was crazy and finally found a room full of dogs but couldn't see her.

I sat down in tears and 3 little white dogs came bouncing up with old lady faces saying I needed to take them home...I couldn't I said I needed my dog and I stood and began walking again and thru the glass I saw my Kasha all skinned like road rash but standing up getting her meds...fast forward to the doc telling me what happened and the guy was in court and fast forward again to me being there and him saying he didn't mean it and was sorry to the judge who said you did a bad thing Sir to which I jumped up and yelled gee wiz yer honor that's harsh, he damn near killed my dog and he's sorry..I think...and the phone rang....holy ____!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weird dream! and yes I had so much guilt leaving my girl and look how it manifested..needless to say she got a huge hug this morning. I'll have to find a pet sitter...can't help but wonder if this began as her dream...gotta run!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! q19

Sometimes there is evil in the medical world and the indifference? of it to making one well. Random choosing of drugs without considering who will be taking them. I had a bad day yesterday.

The drug, Levaquin. A spot on my gall bladder where it meets the liver called for some meds to heal so she chose a very powerful antibiotic. Now I am of that .4% of people who are sensitive. Zithromax will have me sitting on the throne for hours.

THIS was like a trip to the 60s/70s.

My hands felt like mittens, my tongue and throat thick, I shook, was very dizzy and vision was blurred. I called both pharmacist and doc to tell them and from my slurred speech they knew I was reacting, so told to stop, YA THINK!

Took some powerful Reiki from a dear friend to get the poison out, not fun bending over the throne either so I begged to have it sent to the bladder which it was, I peed constantly. I feel myself today but laying about feeling like I was outta control was not good. Bad drug imho. A bit tummy tender now but steady.

Mind the meds, I shoulda challenged her more. I did remind her how sensitive I am and she said it would be ok but it was necessary. I find out Monday what she wants me to take next. me? I may go see Cecelia, original Reiki wonder for me. her touch is so healing, a couple weeks with her may well help more.

Have a great Sunday. I plan to be a complete lazy momma bear.

q12

Oh Sahje, you poor lady :(
Lots of us are drug intolerant now.
I too dread ever being given antibiotics.
I am now allergic to pennicillin and the one they give you if you are allergic to it.
I hope you have seen Cecilia and she has helped you.
I shall send you more shortly.

You carry on being a lazy momma bear and enjoy it ((hugs))